Dum da dum dum... dum da dum dum dum.....

So here I was engaged, mind you, I was not wearing the ring I had picked out, nor had I been proposed to in the manner which I had wanted. I had a friend, one of the teachers at the theatre, who was a few years older than me and married. She told me that if you don't get proposed to in the way you want, and he knows, say no and don't look back. It should have triggered something in my brain, when he proposed to me and before yes or no, this particular thought ran through my head, but, I was a child and I had never been proposed to before, and I wasn't even sure that "no" was an option. So, finally, I just buckled down and did it. I emailed my Scottish guy and told him the news.
To be completely honest, I knew even then whether or not I was actually going to make it to the alter, and I think my email to him went something like this:
Dear Scottish guy,
I don't know if you have heard or not, and hopefully you haven't, but I have something to share with you. You know that I have been on again off again with my boyfriend for awhile now, and I wanted to let you know that he has proposed to me and I have said yes. To be honest with you, I am not even sure we will ever make it to the alter, because it seems that once you have a ring on your finger, you have a million more little details to fight about. I wanted to tell you so that you are not surprised when you get here. I am still very much looking forward to your visit and I can't wait to see you. Please don't hate me and know that a part of my heart will always love you.
Love Always,
XOXO,
Shanna
Like I said, I am not sure I remembered the email verbatum, but it is definitely close. He emailed me back and told me that no, he didn't know, but if that was what I truly wanted, then he was happy for me and he would always love me too.
Now, you are probably asking yourself... why the hell didn't you just end things then? Why when I had this amazing Scottish guy telling me he would always love me, a guy who loved theater, wanted me to pursue it and didn't expect me to teach Sunday School and cover my tattoos, why would I still be engaged to Mississippi man. I have no idea.... except that I knew no one thought it was a good idea. Ugh!!!!! the things we do just to be a tiny little bit rebelious. You are also probably wondering, did Mississippi man know about Scottish guy. Absolutely not, are you kidding me? I told Scottish guy everything, and Mississippi man didn't have a clue. Say la Vie! Until tomorrow, my friends.